I'm a Midwesterner married to a Southerner, raising a family in Las Vegas and appreciating the beauty along the way!
Monday, April 02, 2012
World Autism Awareness Day
If you are keeping score, we don't know yet if Remy is autistic. Initial screening has the professionals concerned that he is - one even told me to prepare myself because, from everything she had seen, she believed he would be diagnosed with Autism - but nothing is certain until he goes through the diagnosis process. That is finally scheduled to begin on June 7th and ends on July 2nd. In my mind I have accepted that he is - but even if we were to find out that he is not, and all of this one day is a memory, I know that I will never look at kids with special needs, and especially autism, the same way I did before. Before all of this, I was scared of the unknown that they represented, put off by what I perceived as a wall between me and them, unsettled by the seeming senselessness or unpredictability of behavior. Now I feel affection because in them I see Remy, I feel empathy because I have a sense now of the frustration and the isolation they can experience, and I feel proud of how hard they work day by day with a body or a mind that doesn't cooperate the way yours or mine does. This afternoon, when Remy wakes up from his nap, we will go out to the front stoop and screw in a special blue light bulb that will shine all night, a signal to the world that our hearts are with all the precious boys and girls, the men and women, who find themselves on the Autism Spectrum.